Showing posts with label So Much Pain Behind These Eyes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label So Much Pain Behind These Eyes. Show all posts
I Miss You
You left a long time ago,
There's nothing I can do,
I miss you as the days go on,
Not allowed to see you.
I think of you day and night,
Of all the things we used to do,
It makes me sad,
It makes me cry,
They had no right to take you.
You left in just one day,
No time to say goodbye,
Every time I think of you,
All I want to do is cry.
Everyday without you,
Is like every day without air.
I cannot stand,
One more day without you,
Please come home so soon.
I cry silent tears . . . .
A thunderous silence
breaks through my thoughts.
What was once many great ideas
is now a triumph, lost.
Baffling words tumble through my mind.
Reflections of darkness hover.
A disturbing peacefulness beckons to me,
and inside myself, I take cover.
What would it be like to stay there forever?
To be lost in all my cares?
From the inside, looking out -
I cry silent tears . . . .
Loneliness
Loneliness is darkness
A never-ending night.
Even though the black won’t go away,
You’ll never fall asleep.
Because loneliness sparks a fear
And unlike other nightmares
Awakening will not vanish it;
For the darkness is too strong
To allow any rest.
It makes memories into ghosts
And dreams into spirits.
Too vague to remember
Too important to forget.
The apartment is dark
The apartment is dark.
I like it that way.
Through unshaded windows
I look across the street.
People there have lights on.
I see them through curtains.
A muscular young man
Washes dishes with his wife.
A woman drinks beer
In the blue light of TV.
On the top floor a mother,
A daughter, a daughter:
Three without men.
Next door an old couple
Smothers the fear
Of who will die first.
In a singles bar
I meet a woman
And have nothing to say.
Too many times
I have said the same things.
I watch here in darkness,
In the peace of aloneness,
And think about me,
And think about you.
It doesn't matter how hard I try
It doesn't matter how hard I try, to keep you inside
Every single time you arrive, it's again because of the lies
When I'm in pain, I don't want to cry, and when I start that fight
You versus I, I realize I'm floating, so I've got to blink my eye
Its okay to loose, Its okay to let it out, no reasons left to deny
How dispirit the situation is, there will come a time that you'll get by
Once the first drop slides against your nose just remember, its all right
I feel them growing in my eyes now, but I know there'll come dry nights . . .
Can't Count the Tears
I've been awake for days- I can't sleep
The thought of losing you; Cuts me deep
My heart is crying out for you
Will I have- to come home to?
I need you here.
Right now I'm living in my darkest fear,
My head hurts- I can't stop the ringing in my ear.
It's feels like I'm crying blood instead of tears,
What the hell is happening to me- after all these years?
Can't count the tears; There's too many.
I need to feel love. Do you still have any?
I'm dead inside- I don't wanna breathe.
I can't stop you; If you want to leave.
All I feel is the pain,
Somehow it brings comfort to my brain.
I don't want to go on without you,
I don't know what to do.
There's a hole in my heart- A sharp pain in my head.
Something is missing inside; I feel like I'm dead.
Kiss away my hurt, remove my fear,
I don't know why I need you here.
Here comes that same old familiar pain, again.
I'm too dead to live, too alive to die,
All I ever seem to ask is "why?"; God, why?
My whole life seems like it's crashing down,
How can someone live with their heart torn out?
Please! Someone out there come save me.
Have I finally- Gone crazy?
Here I am broken, fragile- but still a man.
I've fought for life for so long; I'm dead right where I stand.
God, please don't leave me like this!
I need you to be here; someone answer my wish.
Take away the fears- I have inside,
Can't count the tears- God knows that I have tried.
I'm wounded- I can't walk
I can't call out to you; We don't talk,
I've beg you not to leave,
When I'm gone don't grieve.
I can't sleep- I wish I could die.
I can't live in this emotional suicide.
It's hard to fight for what I can't see,
I need to learn to just believe.
I'm empty and it's something I can no longer hide,
Can't count the tears- That have yet to be cried.
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